Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Showers #2 & #3 and Only 3 Weeks to Go!

Well on my 35th and 36th week of pregnancy two more amazing groups threw me two more amazing showers!

The first was the "Birthday Group", long-time friends of my wonderful Mother-in-law who have known Chris his entire life!  To say the shower was beautiful would be a major understatement! It was absolutely gorgeous and Baby Ward was showered with so many cute and needed gifts! He sure is one lucky little man!  Here's a few shots from the day:

          Didn't I say it was beautiful!?

          Some of the awesome gifts!

                The "Birthday Group"!

Now if that wasn't enough just one week later my friends Carrie and Kandis threw me a shower for all of my amazing friends at Friends Church!  They too went all out!! It was amazing!  From blue icing dipped strawberries, to a cheese platter to die for, the spread was a pregnant woman's dream!  We played fun games like Giess the Baby Food and another that had me guessing what Chris would say to questions asked of him regarding becoming a dad...it was both hilarious and so sweet to hear his answers! I seriously hit the jackpot when it came to getting him as a husband and father of my kids!!  

I don't have pics yet of that shower but I will post some as soon as I get them!

So with all of the showers behind me I officially have just under three weeks until Baby Ward comes into this world! I have to say that the anticipation is getting to me...I cannot wait to meet this little guy! I have to say that I have been blessed with a pretty easy pregnancy...no morning sickness, not too uncomfortable, pretty mellow all around! So as these final weeks approach and my body begins to run out of room for this guy I am trying to soak in each and every jab to the ribs and waddle across the room...this is my last time of complete oneness with my little man...soon he will be out and separate, growing and learning and become his own independent little person! So for now I'm cherishing my last few weeks with him in my belly but looking forward to meeting him face to face soon!!

For your enjoyment here are some shots of his nursery, all coming together!  Just some finishing touches here and there and we will be done!'

                       His closet!

                Dresser and Rocker!!

His crib, where the "sweet dreams" happen!

Well, with baby watch officially happening...it will be only a few weeks before we all get to meet him!  Stay tuned...






Monday, October 7, 2013

A Shower for Baby Ward!!

So I know I am jumping ahead a little bit, but this past weekend was so special that I had to share it now, instead of trying to get a few more "history of my pregnancy" posts in!

Yesterday, October 6th was my first ever BABY SHOWER...and man were we showered!  I seriously have the best friends and family a girl (and baby) could ask for!  I mean this shower was absolutely beautiful!  Every single detail was planned with love!  It as gorgeous!  This was actually the start of what I am calling my "marathon of showers" as I am a triply blessed mama who will be having not 1 but 3 showers over the course of the month!

Baby Ward sure was loved, getting lots of cute little goodies from stuffed animals, to handsome outfits (so he can look just as handsome as his daddy) and many necessities to care for this little guy!  The love I felt from all who were there was overwhelming and I couldn't imagine a better group of people to walk through this life with than all of these ladies!

To commemorate the day here are a few of the pictures from the shower!


Baby Ward's beautiful Grandma and MY beautiful mom...we are so lucky!!


Two of the best Aunties and Gammy a boy could have!


My sisters and future Aunties...I am seeing a lot of fun in this guy's future!


My beautiful, talented and amazing hostesses and besties...they made this day so incredibly special!!


Dawn and Amanda!!  Love these girls!


My work girls!!!



Two representatives of our couples group!  Love you Kara and Krista!! 


My cute Grandma!  This will be her first Great Grandson!!


Love these decorations!


There's the bump, all framed and everything!  

Both Chris and I feel so blessed to have such amazing people in our life!  God truly has blessed us!

Sunday, October 6, 2013

HE or SHE What Will It Be??

Once we returned from Maui we had an appointment scheduled for June 21, 2013!  We were so excited to find out if we were having a little Mister or a little Miss!  We decided to have a Gender Reveal Party where we would have our families over and we would all find out together! Saturday came and we went to the ultrasound place...we were so nervous/excited!  In order to keep it a secret from us the tech turned the screen off while she determined the gender and then put the results in an envelope and handed it over.  NOT looking inside that envelope was the HARDEST thing!!!  My husband was such a trooper as he actually really dislikes surprises.  Not just sort of doesn't prefer them, but actually really really doesn't like them.  He's the guy who watches the reality t.v. shows and looks up the results ahead of time because he doesn't like waiting until the end!  So you can imagine that this wasn't his most favorite way to find out...but he went  along with it and was extremely supportive! I took the envelope to Party City and had previously decorated a large box and left the box with the store clerk and asked them to put either blue or pink balloons inside the box and tape it up.  I got the idea on Pinterest and couldn't resist the idea of making this momentous moment in our life as special as possible!

So fast forward a few hours later and our family gathered in our house for the big moment!  It was so fun to have everyone there, waiting along with us to find out the big news!  The time had finally come...so what was the result you ask??  Well we captured it on video so see below for the big news!


That's right....it's a BOY!!  We were sooooo excited to know that our little baby was going to be a HE! Here are a few more pics from that special day!  


A picture of our cute little box!


Our little man's first official outfit!


It's a BOY!

The journey towards meeting our little guy was flying by! Only 6 more months to wait!!  The next hurdle would be the name (just so you know, this is still not decided...we will just have to wait until our little guy is here before we decide)!!

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Our Little Miracle...

That's right...we were PREGNANT!  To say that I was in shock would be an understatement!  I mean, I had tested just two days earlier and it was as negative as negative could get!  Could this really be possible??  Now we had been here before...twice...so we knew that this was just the beginning of a new kind of anxiety!  But this time we were going to do things differently!  We had agreed, after Chris had shared with the congregation our story, that we were going to not walk in fear the next time around.  We were going to share with others our news and seek to use the most powerful tool in our toolbox...PRAYER!  We knew what it was like to tell no one, go through the loss alone and then end up telling everyone anyway so that we could receive the support of those who love us!  We knew that what felt like protection, ended up, for us, feeling like like the opposite.  Chris just so happened to be preaching that coming weekend and his message was on prayer...coincidence...I think not!  So we prayerfully decided that we were going to share our news with our church family, and allow God to use whatever came next to minister not only to us, but anyone else He chose!  We wanted to be transparent, even if it meant walking through another loss much more publicly.  So the weekend arrived and Chris told about 2200 people about our little, barely 4 week old, miracle!  The love and support that poured in was overwhelming!  It still brings tears to my eyes as I remember hearing the stories of encouragement from those who have experienced what I had and had gone on to have 2, 3, 4, even 5 kids!  To look down at my non-existent belly and know that the little life growing inside had literally hundreds and maybe thousands of people praying for him/her.  I knew that no matter what transpired over the next few weeks, we had made the right decision for us...this is what God wanted us to do and we felt incredible peace about it.

This go around I had switched OBGYN's and began seeing Dr. Anzaldo!  He was the doctor that delivered my twin sisters (who are now 19)!  He was a specialist in high risk pregnancies (which I was now considered).  I called to let them know I had a positive test...and so began a journey I knew too well!  I had blood tests to confirm my levels and began on the Progesterone again to make sure those levels remained within normal range.  But the Lord did something I didn't even knew I needed this go around...He gave me a normal experience.  What I mean is, that the last go around it was test after test, ultrasound after ultrasound and the anxiety I felt on a daily basis was so high because I literally was always waiting for some kind of result to be available to me.  But no this time...this time I had a doctor who was very calm and when my initial test results came back normal, he moved forward as if I was any other woman who walked into his office.  He didn't schedule an early ultrasound, instead he scheduled me the typical 8 week ultrasound was standard for anyone.  You would think that this would cause me more anxiety but surprisingly it didn't...it gave me hope, it made me feel normal!  God was so good!

We went in for that first ultrasound full of anxiety, anticipation and fear!  It wasn't this ultrasound that we needed to make it through, honestly we felt that until we had two good ultrasounds, we weren't in the clear because last time we had one good one and then the bad one.  But we still looked on in hope that what we would see on the screen was a little, growing, healthy baby...and this is what we saw...


It was our healthy little baby, heartbeat and all!  We were so excited!  The nurse that did the ultrasound said that she would have us come back in 2 weeks so that we could see the baby again.  It was so nice because she explained that what she saw looked "perfect" but that she knew that we had gone through a lot and wanted us to have the assurance that everything was ok!  Such a different experience then what we had last time...again...God is so good!

Two weeks later, we went back...and held our breath, waiting in the room for the nurse to come in.  Chris and I actually joked (pretty much at every appointment) that because we have had so many ultrasounds in the past that basically we could just do them ourselves and had to fight the urge to just take the wand and begin our own exam!  We fought the urge and of course waited for the nurse.  She came in and began the ultrasound and we waited silently for her report...and again she said "there's your baby, and everything looks perfect"!!  The relief was instantaneous!  Maybe this really was it!  Here is a pic of our little miracle at this 9 week appointment...



The baby had grown so much!  The baby kind of resembled more of a hamster than a baby, but gosh darn it he/she was our little hamster and we couldn't be more proud!  And so the obnoxious "oohing and ahhing" of parenthood began!  The next milestone to reach was our 12 month mark...this of course is the "magic week" for those who are pregnant as it marks the end of the first trimester and the risk of miscarriage drops to less than 5%.  We couldn't wait to get to this point!  The weeks went by, the prayers were lifted and finally we made it!  A little self disclosure...I spent the first trimester praying and pleading with God to let me have morning sickness!  That's right, you heard me, I wanted to have morning sickness!  I wanted some sign, some signal, that I was having a normal, healthy pregnancy!  But, alas, I was not sick!  Looking back, I am so thankful for that blessing, but in the moment I really wanted to be violently ill so that I could bask in all of my pregnant glory!  At 12 weeks we got to go in for another ultrasound and to meet with Dr. Anzaldo for the first time!  It was an amazing experience on so many levels.  First, God confirmed without a doubt that He had brought us to the perfect doctor for our situation.  He introduced himself, began making small talk and through that time we discovered that he is a believer and is actually on the Elder Board of a local church.  Before he began the ultrasound he did something so unexpected and so meaningful...he asked us if we could all pray together before he began the exam!  It was amazing, and I am tearing up just thinking about how amazing it was to have this man, my doctor, pray for our baby with us...it was incredible!  We were so excited to see the ultrasound...our little baby was going to look like a real, recognizable baby!  Here is what we saw...PERFECTION!

It was so cool to see our baby look like a baby!  With each passing appointment we began getting more and more comfortable with believing that this was really happening for us...in a few short months we were going to be parents to a little girl or little boy!  In June we went on a family vacation to Maui...it was amazing!  We so enjoyed, the sun and relaxation.  We had 15 glorious days in paradise, but knew that when we got back we had only 1 week to go before we got to find out if our little bundle of joy was a HE or a SHE!  We were so excited!!  








































Our Story Continued...

I can't even tell you how excited I was...and shocked...to see that positive test!  It was a miracle!  And to top it all off, I got the positive result on the day of my my mom's wedding!  I had taken that day off to plan, decorate and bake a cake for her special day and was just beaming with joy the entire time!  I didn't call Chris right away because I wanted to surprise him...it was seriously the longest 8 hours of my life!  When he arrived at my grandparent's house (where the wedding was held) I pulled him into the the bathroom and showed him the test!!  It was amazing to see the huge smile on his face...it happened, we were pregnant!  This time around, given that we had already had a miscarriage, we decided to be cautious with who we told.  We decided that we would tell our parents and family but other than that we would wait to tell others until we knew we were in the clear.

I called my doctor the next day and let her know that I had gotten a positive home pregnancy test and she sent me a lab slip to get my blood drawn.  This was where things turned south the last time so, understandably so, we were pretty nervous about this test...but two days later I got the email from my doctor that my levels had doubled and looked great and we were indeed PREGNANT!  She did however say that my Progesterone levels (without going into all kinds of scientific detail, this is basically the hormone that helps you sustain your pregnancy) were lower than she'd like.  She put me on a Progesterone supplement twice a day to help with those levels.  To say that we were nervous, anxious, fearful, etc. would be an understatement.  Due to our last miscarriage my doctor had me go in for a really early ultrasound at a little over 5 weeks.  Now if you know me, you know that I am a researcher when I get anxious.  So you bet I knew about everything Google, Bing or any other site for that matter had to offer me about pregnancy, HCG levels, Progesterone, ultrasounds and the list goes on.  So with all of that research under my belt I knew that an ultrasound at a little over 5 weeks wasn't going to show much, and was a little irritated while simultaneously excited about having this first ultrasound.  When the day came, Chris and I nervously went to the appt and were shown on the screen a dark area with a little bubble-type thing inside of it...this was our baby!  It was the yolk sac and for that time was a good sign but also incredibly too soon to tell us much more than that.  So we left knowing we would be going back in for another ultrasound in a week or two to see how things progressed.

The next few days went by pretty uneventfully and the idea that we were going to be parents began to sink in.  I remember specifically feeling this peace, this calm that this was really happening!  My reasoning for this was that I truly felt that God would not allow us to go through a miscarriage again.  I saw the first one as being the event that led us to realize that we were ready for and truly wanted to have a baby...it was a painful, but God given event that spurred us to where He wanted us to be...right here, with this child growing inside of me!  So my nerves were pretty calm for the most part and I felt confident that this was it for us!  Fast forward a few days and I had gone in for another blood draw to see the progression of my levels and got the results...my Progesterone, even on the medication, had dropped and my HCG didn't quite look right to me.  I mean I did graduate with basically a Medical License from Google so I would know right! ;)  Well I contacted my doctor informing her of my medical evaluation of the situation...and she agreed, it was a little concerning.  So she scheduled me for an emergency ultrasound an hour later and wanted to have them check me out and make sure everything looked ok.  I called Chris and we met up to go to the ultrasound place.  We both were braced for the worst...my levels didn't look good and we needed a miracle.  As I laid on the table our hearts were racing and we held our breath waiting for the images to come on the screen and then we heard our ultrasound tech say "There's the heartbeat"!  Tears streamed down our faces and we felt this instant relief...everything's ok!  We celebrated and laughed with joy and Chris even leaned over and said "It's going to be a girl, the whole time we were waiting I was praying 'Lord let her be ok' so I just know".  We left and called our parents with the good news!  Now again, because I now have a medical license, I knew that the statistics of having a miscarriage after a heartbeat is detected drops significantly...so we were in the clear...I just knew it!  My doctor called me later that afternoon and said she was happy with the results and that we would go back in about a week and a half for our 8 week ultrasound to follow up.  So we were riding on a cloud and really feeling like everything was great!  Of course the next week and a half didn't exactly fly by but when the day for our next ultrasound came, we went in with excitement!  What came next was our worst nightmare...

We went into the room and I laid on the table as I was becoming a pro at doing.  The ultrasound tech began the ultrasound and everything was just silent.  She was silent, we were silent and watching the screen in anticipation of seeing our baby.  The ultrasound was performed with no commentary from the tech and then it was over and she just stated, "I will have the doctor review the scans and will be back in a minute".  What just happened?  I looked at Chris anxiously, with a pit in my stomach...something is wrong.  And then Chris said the words I couldn't bring myself to say, "I didn't see a heartbeat".  We both sat in silent shock, waiting to hear and trying to make sense of what just happened.  The tech was gone for what seemed like eternity, and then came back in and said, "We are trying to get in touch with your doctor but she is not in today so someone from their office will call you to set up an appointment to meet with her".  That was IT...that was all we were getting!?!  On our way out she just patted me on the back and said, "I'm so sorry".  Those three words said it all!

We spent the day in disbelief...we had lost the baby.  We were devastated, trying to make sense of this situation and honestly trying to understand why God would take another baby from us.  We cried and got angry, we pretty much experienced every emotion possible and then settled on numb, because we couldn't do anything else but just wait to talk to the doctor and see what went wrong.  We met with her the next day and she confirmed what we already knew, they couldn't detect a heartbeat and we had what is called a "missed miscarriage" which is when the baby doesn't make it but your body doesn't detect it so you don't miscarry on your own.  She reviewed with us what would happen next, what to expect and then reviewed the testing she would like to have done to try and see if we could find some cause for the miscarriages.  It was such an emotional time!  Eventually I did miscarry and I began the testing to see if there was any biological cause for the miscarriages that could be prevented.  Over the next month or so I was poked and prodded and had multiple viles of blood drawn for what seemed like every test known to man!  After about a month or so we met with our doctor and she told us that all of my tests were normal, there was no physical cause for these miscarriages...basically "these things happen" and we were just unlucky...twice.  It's hard to articulate exactly how it feels to go through something so painful and get no answers for why it happened...I was hopeful and angry all at the same time.  But more than anything, what took me over was fear...fear of not getting pregnant and also equal amounts of fear about getting pregnant.  I wanted to be pregnant so bad and felt like it would never happen.  But getting pregnant would mean that I might have to go through all of this again, and that didn't feel any less scary to me...it was such a weird feeling!

Nevertheless we forged ahead.  For the next 5 months we tried to get pregnant and every month experienced disappointment when that darn stick turned up stark white!  I really felt like this wasn't going to happen for us.  In the meantime, enough time had passed that we felt we were ready to tell our story to a larger group of people...our church family.  Chris gave a sermon in January of 2013 in which he shared a bit of our journey.  It was so emotional to relive but also so amazing to receive the outpouring of love and support from our church.  We knew that we would now have hundreds of people praying for us!  We knew that our experience would not be for nothing as we wanted to allow the Lord to use what we had gone through to touch the lives of others who might have had similar experiences and know they aren't alone, that someone understands.  It was a powerful moment for us in the journey God had us on and we were grateful to have gotten to experience the love, prayer and support given to us as a result.  That month came and went and again, we were not pregnant...but it was okay because we knew that God had a plan, either way, He was doing something in our lives and we were finally getting to the point where we could submit to whatever that meant for us.

February 2013 was a tough month of trying for me because I felt the reality that if I didn't get pregnant this month that I would no longer have the opportunity to have a baby in 2013...the failure of this cycle would mean my due date would be either the last day of December or, more likely, the first weeks of January 2014. This was really really hard for me for some reason...2014 seemed so far away and I really felt a lot of despair.  I remember getting to my testing window and feeling so much anticipation and fear.  I woke up on a Tuesday morning, the same day of my cycle that I got my last positive test and prayed hard that I would see two lines...but the three minutes came and went and there was nothing but white.  I was crushed!  I told Chris that we weren't pregnant.  I confided in him how I was feeling about this being our last chance for 2013 and began to grieve the loss of that reality.  Chris was always so supportive in these times and never tried to give false hope, he typically just followed my lead and when I said we weren't pregnant, accepted that it was true and we moved on.  But for some reason, he didn't do that this month.  He got down on his knees and he said, "Let's pray" and began to pray that God would do a miracle and that we would be pregnant this month and have a baby in 2013.  I have to be honest, I was actually a little irritated because I just needed to move on and I didn't want to pray for something I knew was impossible!  The next night as we went to bed Chris prayed that same prayer again, but this time he anointed my stomach with oil.  I laid there and submitted to his prayer and allowed myself too, to pray that I would be pregnant.  We went to sleep and when I woke up the next morning I decided to take another test.  What happened next still, to this day, gives me chills!  I took the test and began going about my business of getting ready for work.  After about 3-4 minutes I glanced at the test, fully expecting to see nothing and then I saw it...was that...it was...there was another line!  I ran up stairs and with a shaky hand and voice asked Chris what he saw.  He said, "Well I see a faint little line right next to that line...what does that mean"?  I said, "Well, that means that we're pregnant!!"

To be continued...

My Intro to the World of Blogging...Our Story Part 1

Being that my husband and I are about to embark on this incredible, joyous and terrifying journey called parenthood I thought it appropriate to begin a little blog...one, because isn't that what us mom's do...find a medium to post every cute, cuddly and hysterical picture of our baby for the world to see?? And two, I thought it might be an opportunity for us to share our life more openly with our friends and family as well as allow the Lord to use the happenings of our life to bless, challenge, encourage and minister to others.  Not that we are anything particularly special, but we all have experiences both bad and good, that when shared with others gives God the opportunity to do something with them, something greater than we might even think!  This blog will primarily be used to post updates on our little man before and after he comes into the world...but given that we have had a bit of a road getting to this point I thought it only appropriate to chronicle those experiences so that we never forget what an incredible BLESSING this little guy is!  So here goes...
On November 5, 2011 Chris and I got married...happiest day of our lives up until that point and one that set us on our journey as a married couple!  Little did we know that in two short months we would encounter the beginning of a journey we never could have anticipated!  In January 2012 I was late...you know late! I had been on Birth Control and I mean, totally taking it, set my phone for noon everyday, never missed a pill on birth control!  So, as these things go, I didn't think much of it...I talked with friends at work, complaining about how irregular things had been and to my surprise everyone was urging me to take a test.  But why would I take a test when I am on Birth Control?? Isn't the pill like 99% effective??  I ignored it, but two hour later was on my way to see a client and running early so I decided to run an errand at Target, funnily enough, to pick up my Birth Control.  While there, I decided to buy a pregnancy test and take it to prove to everyone that I was indeed NOT pregnant.  Well shock of all shocks...the test came up, in bold, no squinting or reading the directions twelve times to see if there should be one line or two, plus or minus...PREGNANT!!  I was literally in shock.  Shaking, crying, terrified to call my husband of two months SHOCK!  Just a little aside--if you know anything about my husband you would know that he does not like surprises!  He looks online before reality shows air to know the outcome, he never wants a surprise party, he seriously hates surprises (unless they are gifts of some sort).  He definitely doesn't like life changing surprises, he likes to be prepared!  So this news was going to be BIG!  So I walked to the car and contemplated calling anyone and I mean anyone other than Chris because I was terrified of what he would say...I mean we had a plan, we would wait at least a year.  But trying to adjust to this new role of wife and feeling that my husband should be the first one I call with news like this, especially since I took the dang test in a Target bathroom by myself. So I sucked it up and dialed his number.  He picked up and I stumbled through telling him the news and, as he so often does, he surprised me with the words "well that's great"!  I became a puddle of tears and let the news sink in for the first time...I am pregnant! We are going to be parents!  We were scared and excited, calling our parents and sharing our happy news.  Like many who went before me I immediately called my Doctor and made an appointment to confirm the test...which by the end of that night I had taken 3 and all said pregnant so this appointment felt more like a formality but it seemed to be what people on TV did when they got pregnant so I figured that was the next step.  
The next day I went in to the doctor and took a test, only to be told that the results were negative...what!?  "No", I said, "you don't understand, I took three tests at home and they were all positive"!  The doctor, in shock that I was actually excited about being pregnant seeing as how I was on the pill, said, "oh, ok well these tests aren't as sensitive as the home ones so let's send you to get a blood test". So after waiting, and waiting and waiting and calling and waiting some more I finally got the results of the blood test...I was indeed pregnant but "really really early pregnant" was the doctor's clinical interpretation!  So he referred me to my OBGYN and I called to set up my first appointment.  This was when things took a turn.  After them reviewing my blood test they asked that I take another test in two days and that they test my Progesterone as well as HCG (the pregnancy hormone).  They told me this will tell them more about the viability of the pregnancy.  This was like a dagger to my heart!  I knew that I had only been pregnant for like a nanosecond but man was I attached to this little person growing inside of me...I couldn't imagine the thought of losing him/her.  So I waited again, the agonizing two days to take the second test and then waited some more...harassing the poor receptionist at the OB's office about every hour to see if my results were in yet.  And finally, at around 3pm that Friday...just four days after getting life changing news, the tide turned again and I heard the words "I'm so sorry but your numbers didn't double and your progesterone is only at a 3, you most likely will miscarry"!  I was devastated!  I prayed and prayed that this would not be the words I heard...that this little miracle that was created despite our own human planning was gone, would not grow into a little chubby baby for us to love.  My heart was broken!  I told Chris the news and our family and we mourned together...but our journey wasn't over.
After getting over the shock of the news, Chris and I had our first of many discussions about what to do next.  I mean we hadn't planned to get pregnant, so do we just keep moving forward with our original plan, or did this change everything?  Well I think it was a little different for both of us.  I mean for him it was this idea, something that would become more real in the months to come but to me, this baby had been in my body, growing, it had changed me!  I wanted to be a mom and I felt it in my bones!  So how do we move forward with me wanting something so much but also recognizing that while it created the same desire in Chris it wasn't as urgent to him as it was to me.  Well we decided to do what, in hindsight, was a little unrealistic give all the knowledge I accumulated about how a person gets pregnant...we decided to just go off the pill and see what happens! Ha! That looked a little like this...Chris thinking you can get pregnant at any time during the month and enjoying the "this could take a few months or more" outlook on the situation.  Meanwhile, I became a pregnancy, ovulation expert...and I am not kidding, you ask anyone in my intimate circle what it was like and they will tell you that I became affectionately known as "Dr. Ward" at work.  If you wanted to get pregnant I was going to help you get it done!  I started taking my temperature, tracking my ovulation and anyone else's who would let me!  In a matter of three months I managed to help BOTH my friends at work get pregnant (I obviously wasn't involved in the most important part of that creation but you bet I took responsibility for as much if it as I could)...I was on fire!  But I also became somewhat, ok ALOT, obsessed!  Every month I would wait to test and every month and for the next three months I became increasingly devastated when the test turned up negative.  It was now April and I had gotten yet another negative test...I was upset!  Chris in his wise and caring way sat me down and said "I think that this is becoming unhealthy.  This is supposed to be fun but for you it is so difficult with each passing month and I hate to see you so upset, maybe God is trying to tell us we need to stop the tracking and take a little breather from trying to control the situation".  This was exactly what I needed to hear...not only was this taking a toll on me emotionally but it was affecting him as well and that is not what I wanted...so I put the thermometer down, stopped the testing and just let it be.  And wouldn't you know...that very next month I got the shock of a lifetime on May 23, 2012 I saw the results I had been waiting for...I was PREGNANT!
To be continued...